What do you believe in? Do you believe in a supreme being that has mapped out each individual path? In which case there is no personal choice, our lives are fated and we cannot change the course it must take.
Or do you believe that our lives are self-directed? This would mean that each path we cross will have an impact on the choices we make. Or perhaps it is a combination of both. Is there a Supreme Being who offers us choices and we must choose the path to follow? I must tell you, from my perspective, that Supreme Being has one hell of a lot to answer for! Not that I am in a hurry to shake his or her hand, but come on. You give me an incurable disease, make me pay a fortune for the ‘stuff’ to function in today’s society and then have the audacity to make it rain!!! If life is mapped out by you Big Guy/Gal then I do not want to play anymore. I am going to pick up my toys and go home. Your sense of humour is a little too twisted . . . Think God is scared yet? It must be tough being omnipotent. Nothing surprises you ‘cause you caused it all. Boring!
I do not belief that what happens to us is merely at the whim of a Supreme Being anymore than I think we have full control over our lives. We are born naked and innocent. From that moment we are constantly bombarded with information. Our parents, our siblings, doctors, bus drivers, everyone we come into contact with throughout our lives has an influence on who we become. How we deal with adversity is a result of that lifelong input. We cannot control the world around us, just how we react to it. Our belief structure is based on the need for acceptance. It also helps to have someone else to blame. “The devil made me do it.”
How we deal with disease or any perceived imperfection is directly related to our beliefs, be they spiritual or secular. No one is perfect. No one is without any redeeming qualities. And as hard as it may be, your belief in others and in yourself will get you through anything. You are worth it.
In many ways you and I are lucky. Yes, I said lucky. Think about it, how many people get a wake-up call? Having a nasty disease has awoken me to the world around me. It has forced me to see what is important in life, in my life. Had it not been for the MS I would probably be out in the world amassing ‘things’ and ‘stuff’ to make my life better. I may have missed the beauty of a solid friendship and the wonders of a kitten’s purr. I now look at flowers given to me by a friend and I see much more than the simple flower. I see the love of a friend and I see myself reflected in the gesture. If I were a schmuck, I would never have received the flowers or had people care and demonstrate that concern in a simple gesture.