Monthly Archives: April 2014

Memories are lost

March 29 2014 007

Over the distance of time

events are forgotten

that shaped a life.

History is written

of the famously known

but the achievements

the wonders

of the ordinary one

slowly succumbs

to the mists of time.

A child of five

wins awards at school

accolades at 15

remembered for a time

but slowly it happens

memory fades

decades meander

as time follows time.

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Rage

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Have you ever felt so angry that you couldn’t see properly, couldn’t think?  Have you ever felt, momentarily, out of control?  I bet you have.  I have.  It is not something I am proud of.  I think I am more afraid of those feelings than anything.  I can now appreciate how people can lose control when they have feelings of rage.

Rage is an emotion that robs you of any sense of propriety.  When it is referred to as blind rage it is exactly that, blind.  Fortunately I do not experience it often and it only lasts for a few seconds.  I dropped the top to my toothpaste the other day and for a split second I wanted to hurl the toothbrush, paste and drinking glass across the room.  I wanted to stand up and smash the bathroom mirror with my bare hands, I wanted to crush any trace of glass to smithereens. I wanted to scream like a banshee.

I am not, by nature, a violent person.  I do not blame anyone for my disease.  I am not looking for vengeance for anything.  Actually I am usually a very positive and upbeat person.  But when these moments of rage hit, I am not myself.  If these episodes lasted longer than a few seconds then I could understand ‘road rage’ or some of the shooting rampages that people go on.  It is very frightening.  I don’t really understand what is happening.  What I do know is that these episodes are a part of me.  I will not deny them.  I will not fully embrace them either.  There will always be some aspects of ourselves that we do not like.  Those dark sides are in all of us.  We would not have the strength of character that we do enjoy without both sides.  There can be no light without dark.  We just have to acknowledge our darker side and ensure that it does not control us.

IN THE YEAR TWO THOUSAND

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WE ARE SHIFTING INTO A NEW CULTURE

DIFFERENT CUSTOMS AND ARTS

EMBRYOS RAISED OUTSIDE THE WOMB

BUYING A FETUS IN A SUPERMARKET

PERHAPS CARBON COPIES OF OURSELVES

BREEDING RACES OF POLKA-DOT PEOPLE

WITH RED EYES AND GREEN TONGUES

PRODUCING CHOICE BABIES

THAT HARBOUR SUPERIOR BRAINS

PRIME HEARING AND VISION

BECOMING UNRIVALED ATHLETES

AT A TENDER AGE.

WE WANT SCIENCE TO RID US OF

HUMAN DEFECTS

WE DON’T WANT FREAKS IN OUR NEW SOCIETY

WE ELIMINATE DISEASE OR HIDE THEM

FROM THE PUBLIC

WHILE SCIENTIFIC ADVANCEMENT PRODUCES

MORE DIFFICULTIES

WHETHER SOCIAL OR PSYCHOLOGICAL

WE WANT SCIENCE TO UNBURDEN THE PUBLIC

THE GIFT OF BETTER PHYSICAL HEALTH

COULD BE ACCOMPANIED BY EMOTIONAL AGONY

AND THESE ARE NOT SCIENCE FICTION FANTASIES ANYMORE

BUT REAL DILEMMAS

WE MAY BE TRAPPED IN OUR FUTURE NIGHTMARE.

WE ARE GOING TO HAVE TO INVENT NEW POLITICS

WITH NEW IDEAS AND QUESTS

WE ARE PLAYING WITH EXPLOSIVES

NEW TECHNOLOGIES ARE SO POWERFUL

THAT THEY ALONE COULD ABOLISH SOCIETY

WE CAN’T SUFFER GOVERNMENTS TO REIGN FREE ANYMORE

FOR THEY OWN SOCIETY

WE CRAVE A MOVEMENT FOR AUTHENTICITY

NOT ACTORS AS POLITICIANS

FOR TECHNOLOGY IS A SHOCK

TO OUR NERVOUS SYSTEMS AND OUR POLITICS

IT SLOWLY DESTROYS OUR ROOTS.

PEOPLE ARE BEGINNING A SEARCH FOR A LEADER

A SAVIOUR TO PIECE OUR WORLD BACK TOGETHER

A SAVIOUR LIKE THE ONE NAMED HITLER

SOCIETY WILL NEVER BE AS IT ONCE WAS

BECAUSE SOCIETY IS IN ERROR.

FUTURE SHOCK HITS THE OLD HARDER AND SOONER

FOR THEY BREATHE FAMILIARITY

THEY COULD ONCE GIVE GOOD ADVICE

BECAUSE IN THE PAST THE FUTURE

RESEMBLED WHAT CAME BEFORE

NOW WE FACE A FUTURE THAT IS SIMILAR

TO NEITHER THE PAST NOR THE PRESENT

BOTH YOUNG AND OLD WILL HAVE TO BRAVE

THE PRESSURES OF THE FUTURE

 AS WE WALK BLINDED INTO DARKNESS…..

I wrote this when I was in high school in the mid 70’s.