I am in a reflective mood today. I am thinking back through the times in my life and I am wondering if the paths I chose, the decisions I made were the right ones. Do you ever wonder how things would be if you had chosen a different path? Usually I don’t ask myself questions that have no answers, usually. I guess I am wondering if I did the right things when there was a choice and did I make a difference? Did I help or did I hinder? Have I been honourable in the choices I have made? Do I have any regrets? Yes. I was cruel to a friend almost forty years ago and I still feel shame. She has probably forgotten me and those days but those incidents, those friends helped to shape the person I eventually became. Today I will not knowingly cause another pain.
Do you ever wonder what influence you might have on someone? Do you ever think that being nasty to someone might have a consequence you cannot even imagine? Every action we take can and does have an effect somewhere. It might only be affecting us but that in itself that can cause a chain reaction that can have unknown consequences to us and to other people. I realize that this sounds like circular logic but it does force us to take responsibility for our actions. Just because you have a few difficulties does not release you from your obligations to the rest of the world. We do not live in insular little rooms where what we think and do affects no one. Everything has consequences and we must take responsibility for what we do and who we are.
The fact that I cannot walk and that I am in a wheelchair forces me to take responsibility for how I act. As I have said before: you cannot run over other people’s feet when you are annoyed. But it goes deeper than that. No one is at fault for my condition. I am not at fault. I have met too many people who feel that someone should pay because they have a disability. I have met people who blame anyone who is in better shape physically, financially, or emotionally than they are. That is just silly. If someone causes me pain then I expect them to atone, but I am not going to spend the next fifty years complaining about it. There are some things that are no one’s fault. It is time people stopped looking for someone to blame and just got on with doing the right thing. If something is broken, spend your time fixing it not trying to find someone to blame for the damage. Granted, it does make sense to discover how the damage happened in the first place so it doesn’t happen again, but that is secondary. Ah yes, that responsibility issue again. You would almost think it was a new concept the way everyone tries to avoid taking it.