When children do it we smile and chuckle to ourselves. When adults do it people tend to raise their eyebrows and perhaps move farther away. I do it. I’ll bet that you do it too. What are we doing that is so bizarre? Talking to ourselves! It can be amusing to watch. And it can be damn annoying when you’re trying to figure something out by speaking out loud and it doesn’t work!
To be honest I’m sure there are those who just like to hear the sound of their own voice. If you have animals or small children, speaking out loud is easy to explain. I find it helps me focus on something and remember it. Also because in order to write I am dictating I’m naturally speaking out loud. When I’m trying to figure out that one particular twist in a story I talk to my characters. People who read my stories recognize that I often put in a twist. The pressure is on to surprise my readers, something they don’t expect. I love to be fooled in a story. I love it when I’m not able to figure it out. I don’t want to know how the story will end three paragraphs in. I want to be surprised. So that’s the way I write my stories. Sometimes it takes a while to figure out a pivotal point. Sometimes it takes months, sometimes it never happens.
So I do have conversations with myself. Sometimes it is simply one line: “ARE YOU KIDDING ME!” I think I say that a lot. The world is constantly conspiring to annoy me. Hahaha! I know it’s not just trying to annoy me! But some days . .
I think that I’m a good listener. I know I’m a good talker. There are very few topics I don’t have an opinion on. This from a child who wouldn’t say “boo” to a ghost. My how the times have changed. I think if you’re comfortable enough with your self to actually hold a conversation with yourself you must be pretty self-aware. Not everybody is. Some are a little too aware of themselves! But hey, life goes on . . . sometimes loudly!