Monthly Archives: December 2017

It’s Done!

 

Yup! It’s over. Kaput. It’s gone, finished. And what the hell do we do next!

The year 2017 was a good year. It was also a bloody awful year. As I look back over the previous 12 months I’m pleased that I survived it and that those I love, are happy and healthy. We have made great strides as a species but there have also been atrocities that we have to take responsibility for. But not today.

Today I want to remember fondly the things I’ve done, the people I have connected with and the dreams I still hold dear. December 31 is a day of reflection and of anticipation. Where are we going next? What are our goals? I can only speak for myself and I can only postulate that the good times I am expecting will only manifest themselves if I’m in the right attitude. It’s all about the attitude.

Have I grown as an individual? Have I been a positive influence to those I have connected with? I think so. I hope so.

Anticipation is a wonderful way to greet the New Year. And I am anticipating a year full of laughter and positive experiences. I’m going to publish at least one book this year, possibly two. I’m going to have another art show that I am excited about. I’m painting underseascapes that I have never done before. And I’ve already sold one painting!

Will there be tears in my future? Probably. I’m sure there will be disappointments and anger and sadness and . . . but that’s okay. It’s all part of the journey and I’m looking forward to the next step. Would you like to share a little of my journey? It’s going to be a ride!

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The Empty Chair

 

An empty chair beside his bed

An old man lay alone

He thought of all that he had done

And how he could atone

 

He did not know the words to use

To speak to God above

A Priest once said you only need

To speak your words with love

 

Place a chair beside your bed

And Christ will sit with you

Never fear, He knows your truth

He knows just what to do

 

Every night the man did try

To speak to Him above

He spoke his truths and his woes

He spoke it all with love

 

The chair beside him spoke one night

And asked if it was time

Come with me and be at peace

Together we will climb

 

To heights untold where angles sing

My Fathers waits with pride

Hold my hand and we will fly

The world will have to bide

 

The sun did rise to greet the day

And our hero breathed his last

Content of heart and smiling lips

He took the hand as asked

The True Spirit

Hello everyone.  I wrote this story several years ago as a statement about the Christmas season.  It was my way of dealing with my issues.  I repost it now as my Christmas gift to you.  May this Season show you the wonders that are everywhere if we are just willing to look.

Mary was angry. Here it was two days before Christmas, she was in a town she didn’t know, a new job she didn’t like, she had no friends and no family close by, and some dirty bum had his hand out looking for money. And on top of all that, he had the unmitigated gall to be smiling as if he was happy.

Mary wasn’t smiling. In fact she was absolutely miserable. Christmas was just another day on the calendar, it had no real meaning. People went into stores and spent a ridiculous amount of money on gifts for other people that the other people really didn’t want. Christmas wasn’t even for the children. It was just another way to teach them about how money makes the world go round. If you had money it was a good life. If you did not then you starved and were miserable, and you should look like you were miserable.

Mary approached the man that she called a bum. She was frustrated, she was angry, and she needed this person to explain to her how he could be so damn happy. Maybe he was on drugs or maybe he was crazy, but Mary didn’t think so. Of course she did drop a twenty dollar bill into his tin can before she posed her question.

“Are you alright? You are sitting here on a cold sidewalk asking for money. All around you is obscene wealth. How can you sit there and smile when you have nothing and so many people around you are spending money like it is water and on frivolous things? You look like you need food and these people are buying toys for people who really don’t want them. How can you sit there and smile? I’ve seen you everyday for the last week and you smile everyday, you wish people a Merry Christmas, or Happy Hanukkah, or Happy Kwanza and I don’t understand how you can actually be happy.”

At this point Mary was almost in tears. She felt so alone and so unloved that she felt jealous of this destitute individual. She wanted to shake him to make him see what an awful place the world was but she didn’t. What she did do was pause for a breath and what she saw then took that breath away.

Just a moment before she had been looking at a dirty bum and now he had taken on a dignity that belied her original perception. He sat up straighter and his smile became wider. Even his eyes seemed to twinkle with a secret knowledge. There was a beauty to his face that she had not noticed before. His voice, when he spoke, was strong and melodic. The words he spoke were the truth.

“But I have everything. Someone gave me a coat to keep me warm. He gave me the gift of warmth. People stop and give me their spare change, a cup of coffee, or a sandwich. A small child gave me a penny. A penny to a small child is like a million dollars to a billionaire. A beautiful woman gave me her scarf to warm my neck. An old man gave me a warm pair of gloves. All I have to offer them in return is my smile and my best wishes. Some people are embarrassed and hurry on but others take it in the spirit in which it is given. Some people give of themselves, and that is what makes me the wealthiest of people.”

Mary thought about what this person had just said to her. It was starting to make sense. The importance of the season was not the gift; it was not the thought of the gift. That was all meaningless. What was important was the giving of one’s self, willingly.

The next day Mary went into work. She felt a little lighter, a little happier. She looked around her with a new perspective: people were giving of them selves; the gifts they were giving were simply an extension of their spirit. Sometimes the gifts were expensive, sometimes the gifts cost only pennies and sometimes it was only a word and a hug. But these people were giving, Mary saw that now. And Mary started giving as well.

It was Christmas Eve now and Mary wanted to share with the homeless man what she had learned. She stopped at the bank and took out one hundred dollars. She placed the money in an envelope and tucked that into the pocket of her coat. With a smile on her face she went looking for the homeless man.

But he wasn’t there. Mary walked up and down the street looking for him. She asked shop keepers if they had seen him but everyone was too busy and said they didn’t remember. So Mary continued on her walk home. She was sad now that she couldn’t share with the man who had taught her so much. She wondered where he had gone and what he was doing for Christmas.

Just two blocks before Mary reached her apartment building was a small church. Mary had seen the structure before but had never ventured in. Today her feet took her over the threshold and into the church. She sat quietly in one of the back pews and looked up into the beautiful stained-glass windows. She felt at peace. As her eyes wandered over the beautiful paintings, a figure seemed to stand out: it was of man who was seated on the ground and his hand was outstretched as if beckoning. Her eyes widened in recognition and then she shook her head, it was not possible.

As Mary turned over in bed that night, she replayed in her head what she had learned and she smiled. She had left the envelope with the money in the church; she knew it was the right thing to do. Never again would she forget just how valuable it is to interact with other people. Giving of one’s self is as simple as smiling. He had taught her that.

 

The end

 

   Merry Christmas